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Flatland
05:21
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Born unto this abandoned Earth
Forsaken, no chance to show our worth
A barren waste
Panoptic illness
Head bent down in disgrace
The empty fields and darkened water
A path that's been concealed
A deadly trap
'Cause we are sinking
A lost heirloom on the map
Time slows
An empty road
A broken man turns the sign to close
A cold wind
Will we begin to finally see the shape we're in?
Sand
Gray land
Withstand
Expand
Understand
Looking through the endless void
Observations, lost and destroyed
There's nothing left for me now
My hands are empty
You learn to do without
Time slows
An empty road
A broken man turns the sign to close
A cold wind
Will we begin to finally see the shape we're in?
Sand
Gray land
Withstand
Expand
You have to understand
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Economics
04:00
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No books at home
Who cares for reading?
My mind's too numb anyway
My mom's a loudmouth
Hey, who's my dad?
Apathy always on display
I hate my home
But I'm never leaving
Perhaps I love it after all
The rotting sofa
My kingly throne
Lost within a sea of alcohol
I spend my days
Lost in a haze
Spend that cash to pass the time
'Cause I work a job
That's going nowhere
The joke on me is so sublime
My home's a tin can
A tornado box
But it's all I can afford
Maybe someday
I'll leave this place
Maybe then I won't be so bored
It's hard to be a winner
When no one's on my side
I am like a sinner
I swallowed all my pride
Everyone I know
Is just like me
We don't care what's out there
Content naivety
I guess I'll just throw my life away
'Cause thinking's hard
It's hard to be a winner
When no one's on my side
I am like a sinner
I swallowed all my pride
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The Crossing
07:42
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Feed the wolf
Collective pride dissolves
Through you
Become the channel
Dead truth
Dismantled
Too tired to fight them all
The few who chose to follow
Found themselves broken and hollow
Rushing along through bitterness and pain
Pushing the edge too much
With nothing more to gain
Cast from the fold
It's clear to everyone
The act is getting old
Look deep inside
The sense of shame you feel
You can no longer hide
Crossing the plain
Structures remain
Cast from the fold
It's clear to everyone
The act is getting old
Look deep inside
The sense of shame you feel
You can no longer hide
Hush
It will be all right
We'll wait
Through this dark night
For your return
To sanity
And all we've learned
Of our reality
Come home
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Sad Devotion
05:10
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Don't worry you've said it all before
But now we've closed the door
Relentless rage has left us in a hole
Disbelief as we watched it all unfold
You've been bought and sold
Through deceit and promises of fool's gold
Divided requiem
You think it's for everyone
Pleading insanity
Lost tought with humanity
You never ask why
It's something you can never buy
But now it comes to an end
It's over, you can't pretend
You always felt so sure
You thought you found the cure
But all it really was was an intellectual detour
It's hard to watch as you were pulled along
And I know it's hard to admit when you were so wrong
Divided requiem
You think it's for everyone
Pleading insanity
Lost tought with humanity
You never ask why
It's something you can never buy
But now it comes to an end
It's over, you can't pretend
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My Biggest Fear
04:56
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Spent all my days and nights alone
But I hear you callin'
We never set that cornerstone
You sent me sprawlin'
Through life
It seems like I've always been wounded
And you
Please don't leave me excluded this time
I try and keep my spirits up
But it gets so hard
I've gone and used up all my luck
How did we get this far
Through life
It seems like I've always been wounded
And you
Please don't leave me excluded
My biggest fear is losing you
I can't believe all we've been through
I worry our future's getting blurry
So please walk with me
Through the storm
This old house is getting cold
Without you here
You shouldn't need to be told
How much I need you dear
Through life
It just seems like I'm always wounded
And you
Please don't leave me excluded
My biggest fear is losing you
I can't believe all we've been through
I worry our future's getting blurry
So please walk with me
Through the storm
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Daydreamer
04:59
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The fire within you
Came and went so long ago
You paid all your dues
But you still have no control
The dreams you held dearly
Vanished into the night
And now you see clearly
One chance to set it right
But your dreams are your downfall
Fantasy in your head
Brought back from the dead
Reborn
All you ever wanted to be was something more
As far as you could see
The soft glow of promising light
Adrift upon a dark sea
Never had the gift of foresight
The lingering feeling
All you want just out of reach
A life full of meaning
All your gifts will be unleashed
Fantasy in your head
Brought back from the dead
Reborn
All you ever wanted to be was something more
But your dreams are your downfall
Daydreamer forever
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Always on the hunt for more
I got the cure from the hardward store
I got no food, I can't pay the rent
I'm only rich on my discontent
But I have a friend of smoke and ash
There is no judgement but there is a catch
As I slowly burn my life away
Life in shambles, mind in disarray
My hands are shaking once more
Biting my tongue and scratching the sores
I hate it so much
I'm gonna do it again
I forgot about the kids again
Someday I'll have to make amends
Left behind in a parking lot
The cops were called, but I'll never stop
My hands are shaking once more
Biting my tongue and scratching the sores
I hate it so much
I'm gonna do it again
Shaking
I'm shaking
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This moment
I want to keep this moment
Forever
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Breakthrough
04:32
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Survivor
The end's in sight
We just have to carry on
Nothing to work out
Just look to the dawn
And hold on
I remember
Days and nights I never wanted to end
With you my friend
And then it seemed
Everything came to a sudden stop
It's not our fault, it's not our fault
'Cause now a year has come and gone
It's been so long without you
Someday soon
This all will end
On that you can depend
We'll have our breakthrough
And on that day
The skies of gray will wash away
Into the deepest blue
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Leaving A Mark
07:21
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Staring a the picture on the wall
Of a time that I cannot recall
Trapped inside my room I dream of glory
Sometimes it feels like I am trapped inside my own story
Cries of the captive
Convicted with no charge
Labelled non-adaptive
You failed to leave a mark
I feel nothing
Except what was before
Tragic disenchantment
Uncommented loss
Stunted advancement
Another chasm to cross
I fear my mind is breaking
Delusions become the norm
A prize that's worth the waiting
If I can weather the storm
No choice
Home, fields of slate
Alone, time reshaped
Turn away
I never want to see this place again
Feel the forces pull
The weight of it all will never let me ascend
Cries of the captive
Convicted with no charge
Labelled non-adaptive
You failed to leave a mark
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Averted
04:09
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We spent our whole lives driving in circles
Chasing after nothing at all
But that's just how it goes
Just like that you're set up and ready to fall
So then I tried to set off course
I thought it might bring something new
And for a time it seemed like things got better
But my thoughts kept returning to you
And we've grown old now
Not a whole lot to say
And while I keep my eyes averted
You're remembering better days
We took it all
The whole damn world
And watched it fade away
And here we remain
So blind to everything but this place
We can't help it
We're fading away
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Prairie
02:08
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We drove down to the river
But the bridge had washed away
I really hope you reconsider
What I had to say
Are we too far gone to save ourselves?
Too old to move on
Are we overwhelmed?
The lights of town glowed in the distance
The moon hung low in the sky
You came with me at my insistance
We were both mystified
Are we too far gone to save ourselves?
We realized it was all just temporary
Out here alone on the prairie
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Neil Howell Missouri
My influences are too vast to name; I love rock, metal, alternative, classical, folk, and everything in between. And I want to make it all. I follow my instincts and hope to produce something new and yet totally familiar. I hope you can find something here that you like. ... more
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