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In the Way
04:48
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It seems like you never have time to go
Your friends don’t remember, ‘cause you don’t see them anymore
Summer days are a distant past
No slowing down, it seems like everything goes so fast
Wait for me
I have to clear the path ‘cause I can’t see
The way to you has been delayed
But I’ll push through
Why does everything get in the way?
Day in and day out, it’s a game we have to play
Shuffle our feet, there’s nowhere to go
When you’re going too fast it feels like time has been slowed
Wait for me
I have to clear the path, ‘cause I can’t see
The way to you has been delayed
But I’ll push through
I know it in my heart
‘Cause I can see the conclusion
Don’t have to be apart
We’ll dispel this illusion
All those things that block our way
Temporary decisions
They’re only there to cause delay
You have to be a believer
That someday, some way
We’ll be walking together
All those things in the way will break away
A clear path to the future for us all
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Common Ground
04:56
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Lost somewhere in days abandoned
An easy thing we thought would last
A thought that has left us stranded
Unable to adapt
Torn, two sides never together
Knives always at their throats
Mourn for the forgotten treasure
We're ready to explode
Will we ever find our common ground?
There's no good measure, confirmed by all accounts
Communicated, a shared experience
Illuminated, it doesn't have to be so serious
And when the talk is over
Where will we go next?
Keep marching on like soldiers
Just what you'd expect
We've been all over it all
Nothing left to say
Negotiations stalled
There's got to be a better way
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The House in the Woods
05:42
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My mind had wandered
My feet ached for the road
A restless desire
A land unconquered
A forest uncontrolled
I walked inside
I feel your presence
I taste your breath
You have awakened me
Your search for transcendence
To cheat your death
Find me and pay the fee
The skies grow dark now
Looking for some shelter
A whisper on the wind
Stagger to a marked house
To escape the weather
Will this be my end?
Come in
I have been waiting for you
So many years I have wanted
And now my dream has come true
You can’t leave now
This is just the beginning
I’ll show you many things you’ll wish you never knew
You tried to take my soul
How could you do this?
Don’t want to hear anymore
I’ll never submit
Free, I am free again
Left you behind
You’ll never be my friend
No turning back, I will return to my home
I am sorry
Release, I will release you
Even after all the things we’ve been through
Never to return again
I am sorry
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Dependable
04:24
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Honest gestures unobserved
A thin drawn smile for those concerned
Patterns etched beneath chaotic lives
And we rarely get what we deserve
Thankful
That I am not alone
You know it's you I'm thinking of
Someone I can rely on
A world of loose ends I cannot hold
The traffic grows weary when I'm on the road
I needed some help just to move along
I needed some harmony just to sing this song
There's no way I can do this alone
Everyday I have to roll this stone
The love you give is plentiful
Devotion given that's dependable
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Ghost in the Hall
06:24
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There’s something missing here
But I can’t say
It’s all become unclear
Like the skies that turn to gray
I’m a stranger in my home
And I feel so afraid
There’s a ghost that’s so alone
Hiding in the life that we made
A phantom in the hall
Underneath my bed
Just hurting
Trapped inside these walls
Can’t get ahead
There’s no returning
Footsteps outside the door
A lingering touch of yesterday
You know I’ve always wanted more
But sometimes those things just fade away
Two spirits in the night
A distant call for love
Will they ever get this right?
And pull themselves out from this sinking flood
A phantom in the hall
Underneath my bed
Just hurting
Trapped inside these walls
Can’t get ahead
There’s no returning
The air full of remorse
Haunted
Tapping deep into the source
Resurrection of the dead
Nothing ever truly dies
Awakened by the sun
Something has changed
You know you’ve always been the only one
A life reclaimed
A phantom in the hall
Underneath my bed
Just hurting
Trapped inside these walls
Can’t get ahead
There’s no returning
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Maple
04:51
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Autumn
04:48
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A cold wind blows through the leaves
Falling down with a part of me
Let’s stay inside
A blanket to keep us warm
Cause everything’s alright
As long as we’re together
Soon the snow will fall
The gray to purify
It makes us feel so small
So, Let’s stay inside
A blanket to keep us warm
Cause everything’s alright
As long as we’re together
We’ll make it through this storm
Darkness takes me
And I feel this winter will be the last I see
So please don’t waste the days away
So, Let’s stay inside
A blanket to keep us warm
Cause everything’s alright
As long as we’re together
We’ll make it through this storm
Darkness takes me
And I feel the winter will be the last I see
So please don’t waste the days away
Darkness takes me
And I fear this winter will be the last I see
So please don’t waste the days away
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The Fog
06:46
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Empty streets tonight
Just like my fortune
Run through the red light
Psychotic distortion
The fog slowly settles in
Sightless confusion
The monsters bear their grin
Solitary confusion
I have become the wanderer
Doomed to walk alone
Contentment so close
The fortunes that I’ve squandered
No place to call home
And now I’ll never know
Eyes strain to stay awake
Replay the mistakes
And it’s so far
Until I can overcome all I’m known for
Consequences laid out on the road ahead
The night takes its toll
But I just keep on drivin’
No destination at all
I try and drown the cold out
Before the sun starts risin’
But I’m ready to hit the wall
Eyes strain to stay awake
Replay the mistakes
And I’m fallin’
Waiting to be sober
The rain will wash away
But it will bring no closure
And it’s so far away
Until I can overcome all I’m known for
Consequences laid out on the road ahead
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Ice
04:03
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Freezing
Lost in the snow
All hope for summer has faded
Reaching
Nowhere to go
It’s been so long that I have waited
For my salvation
Drawn
Into temptation
Frost
My body’s freezing
Crossed
I will be leaving
I fought so hard against adversity
But I faded into obscurity
I look around I am all by myself
From a distance I hear a mournful bell
For my salvation
Drawn
Into temptation
Frost
My body’s freezing
Crossed
I will be leaving
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Old Friends
05:12
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A slide show seen through a window
It’s a face I’ll never see again
No holding on, I’ve had to let go
I forgot the argument
But now I remember everyone
And time was not something that we could outrun
I remember everyone
I’m moving through the ages
Makin’ my way back through the years
I’ve seen a million faces
Somehow we’ve persevered
And now everyone is gone
Moved on into the setting sun
And I just want to say how much I miss you all
Before it’s too late
I hope you all get this message
Each and every one of you
I’m sorry for the moments that misled us
Took for granted all the time we knew
And now everyone is gone
Moved on into the setting sun
And I just want to say how much I miss you all
When you hear this song just know that I’m talking to you
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Sleep Paralysis
08:45
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Slow down ‘cause it helps relieve the pressure
It leaves you feeling numb
Nothing anymore that makes you feel the pleasure
Look at what you have become
Paralyzed
Irrelevant
Intimidated
Sterilized
Malevolent
Over sedated
Nodding off
Searching in sleep for the cure
Formation of the wall that you hide in
Forfeit your power to feel
Seeking solace in your praises and your lost sins
Your disadvantage revealed
Pain is the only emotion
Touching the heart of the void
Begging for answers
Praying that hope is not lost
Repairing the fracture
Ignoring the damage it caused
Exploring the limits of existence
Just to see if you could feel again
Pushing back against the resistance
Paralysis your last defense
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Three Fourths
03:44
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Caught up in a strange relationship
Of where I'm supposed to be
A fraction gaining a dictatorship
A truth that’s easy to see
Too much power
In the hands of the few
My life devoured
Three-fourths of you
When I was just a boy
And life was just an adventure
There was one thing I wished to avoid
I swore I'd never surrender
My vow holds true
But I’ve been fighting a losing battle
Three-fourths failing
Called back to the fold
To the world they created
The walls set to implode
Their rule will be dictated
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Question
04:28
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You think you know
Answers to questions
Failed to show
Never took the suggestion
So superior
No need for discretion
Scarred interior
Always pay for concession
Here's some advice for you now
So listen well
It doesn’t matter what you’ve gone through
Self-pity's the way to hell
So damn condescending
A sweet mommy’s boy
Beginning of your ending
Weakness identified
And you just act like you’re crucified
Who are you to know?
You've never been anywhere
Another domino
Crying life’s not fair
You know I've been there
Don't turn away
I'm only trying to help you
Don't question me, boy
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Time and Place
04:29
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Exploding through the past
Demanding to know why questions were never asked
You had to be there
Pulling things out of thin air
Confusion inside your head
Past mistakes or a future dread
Looking into a clouded glass
Sure of the image right before it collapsed
Accepted before the change
It doesn’t matter, the truth’s been rearranged
You had to be there
Pulling things out of thin air
Changing the future
By erasing the past
Placating the consumer
We never were that attached
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You Kids
03:28
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One day I woke up and discovered I was old
Nothing had changed except the doors were all now closed
How did this happen? Stiil the same as yesterday
Some snot-nosed punk told me to get out of the way
Walk on
Your time in here is done
Where did all these kids come from?
Disrespected from the morning ‘til the night
Out of touch no longer know wrong from right
Here's a lesson they haven’t learned just yet
Someday they’ll be like me a vessel of regret
You kids
Just barely out of the crib
You’re so full of shit
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Generational Warfare
04:08
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Everyone is a moron
They'll never be as good as us
A downward trend for us to ride on
Can't take the time to self-adjust
Empathy, what the hell is that?
You're either for or against us
We keep it real, just spitting facts
There's nothing left to discuss
Hating everyone in the world
'Cause I'm convinced I'm right
Forgetting all the lessons I've learned
But, then again, I may have lied
Generational warfare
It's gonna eat us all alive
Living out this nightmare
Only the strongest will survive
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Other People
03:55
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Screaming, loudest in the room
Dreaming, high upon the fumes
Reaching to pull you down again
Watch out, it’s never-ending
Failing, just trying to do what’s right
Scaling, the walls won’t stay upright
They know just what to do with you
So long, you’re never coming down again
Locked in the tower
There’s no beginning and there is no end
Blister, so suck upon your thumb
Filter the things that you’ve become
Masses exploding everyday
You're lost inside them
Fish bowl, such an easy prey
Control what you do and say
Blindly searching for the edge
And they’re always there
That’s other people
They always bring you down
Blessing, it’s always in disguise
Guessing, but never on my mind
Trouble just around the bend
People, they never were your friends
I know, I've seen this all before
Lied to, shaken to the core
Pretend that none of this exists
Too bad, you’re never coming down
Those other people
They always bring you down
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Fault
04:09
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Lessons you chose to ignore
Pathways you didn’t explore
You thought it’d be better this way but then
You only found a locked door
Now everything is a chore
You've never been so bored
You've given up everything because your’re
Always looking for more
Wasting and failing and refusing to see
That you have already lost
Sinking into the hold that you’ve been digging
You'll never believe you’re at fault
You can’t stand anymore
Always completely ignored
One day you’ll become like the others who have
Not become a whore
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Deeper Meaning
07:51
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Lulled into a strangled state
Unconscious starving, discovered too late
The daily toll of a deadly routine
Forced in a corner, always caught in between
Waves come crashing over
The end is getting closer
The clock is running slower
No more time to give to our
Searches for an answer
Engaged in endless banter
Everyone's become a cancer
Fighting my way out of this prison cell
For some resolution
For a piece of mind I can call my own
A deffered conclusion
Going deeper into a world below
I close my eyes as I drift away
In my moment of isolation
An exhilaration where I'd like to stay
As I face the revelation
Watching, I've never seen this before
Something I've always ignored
A simple shape is beginning to form
There's no stopping it now
Something I can’t do without
Farther and farther I keep heading down
Falling
Crawling
Crushed in the silence
Exit through defiance
Reaching the core
And I still wanted more
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My name is Bob, I ride a horse called Slug
And we ride the lonesome plain
Don’t have a job, but I have my truck
It's all I need to dull the pain
Voices calling to me
Whiskey in my iced tea
I don’t know what’s real anymore
Scenes from my childhood
I never grew up
It’s how I like it
Just down on my luck
You can find me at the bar on a Tuesday night
My daddy told me it would be all right
It seems that lately everything is a mess
Old Slug left me and I have to confess
I am losing my mind
Close my eyes
My demise
Wishing it’d all go away
Wait, maybe I can get it all back again
Hope, I know it’s not real but I can pretend
High noon
I’m calling out to you
Draw your pistol
There’s a killing to do
Ride into the sunset
I’ve got nothing to live for
Returning to the plain
A shot rings out
I’ll never make it to the seashore
My whole life’s been in vain
Buzzards closing in
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Neil Howell Missouri
My influences are too vast to name; I love rock, metal, alternative, classical, folk, and everything in between. And I want to make it all. I follow my instincts and hope to produce something new and yet totally familiar. I hope you can find something here that you like. ... more
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